So I am WAY pumped. I am so glad that said principal let me know whats going on with my "file". I really feel like I am preparing myself and setting myself up to be a great and wonderful and hopefully VERY promising candidate! Seriously!
I went to UND yesterday and got my supervisors letter (did I say that yesterday?), I called a Kindergarten teacher from said school, the former 5th grade teacher who I taught with, my priest from my home town (even though he hasnt called me back to confirm he is doing one, but honestly I am ok with it if he doesnt. I think I have enough without him....NOT saying that I wont be very happy and grateful. I know he is busy and is leaving the parish on Wednesday!), so with the 3 that I have, plus the 4 I am getting/got.....I will 7 total references. SERIOUSLY!!!! Come on, who would NOT hire a strong candidate such as myself with all those references?!?!?! I mean principal said that I was a very promising one to begin with.....NOW I think I am only stronger. And thanks to his "advice" or heads up or whatever, I also got an interview help packet or whatever from UND, so I am going to "practice" my questions (since I have already went through this before, I know the questions he will ask...and he did tell me they were the same!). Brent even said he will help me interview. And I just need to BREATHE and relax, and calm down, and I should be ready steady!!!! ahhhhh. I just need to keep working hard at this, and then I am only that much stronger of a candidate!!!!!!! That wont be able to turn me down!!!!!!!
update on clomid day 3: really nothing! Honestly, I am scared! haha. Maybe I am that much more used to it.....but nothing but headaches. I guess again irratiblity. But I am always crabby! haha. But no hot flashes or feeling of dizzy like I used to. Strange. I guess I feel minor cramping...so maybe something is brewing in there. I am excited to see what my ultrasound shows on Monday to see if it is in fact making follies. I am also going ot request a trigger shot, but I think I am going to skip the IUI this time...unless he recommends it.
I am happy about life!
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Monday, June 29, 2009
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Ok I think I seriously might scream. But in a good AND bad way.
Heres my story...first go grab a beverage and a snack, I feel a long post coming on......
Said principal and said school emailed me the other day saying he does not have my references. So I emaile dhim back saying I will run them in on Monday. I did. Then he goes do you have a minute, can we talk? And I was like yes.
Principal: Is your van running, do you need to shut it off
me: (thinking oh shit, my boys in the van I cant shut it off, but I want to talk NOW in case he doesnt get a chance to later on, so I turn on the DVD player in the van and run in side)
Principal: so hows your summer what ar eyou doing
me: I stay at home with my boys
P: whos watching them now
M:the dvd player (thinking, well he knows they are with me, but the dvd player is playing in the van)
P: oh we cant do this now
M no its fine! Seriously they are ok, lets
P: they cant be home alone
M (OH MY GOD HE THINKS I ABUSE MY KIDS OR SOMETHING!) Oh no! They are in the van!! watching a movie! They are seriously fine!!!!!!!
P: oh! I was wondering! I just didnt see anyone in there!
M (Wanting to DIE!!!!)
Anyway, so I dont have to go into play format for the rest of it but he basically tells me that there is now probably a second position open. 3rd grade. (YESSSSSSSSSSSS) and he really wants me aboard. But then he said something about my file lacking stuff. I am like what! well then he says it does not have a lot of references about my teaching and etc. There are good ones about my character, but nothing really strong about my teaching. And he says I need to focus more on my teaching. And then he tells me this other lady who has worked at Sacred Heart for a while now kind of as a para or something also applied for this job!!! I am like F me silly!!! Are you serious!!!! She has WAY more experience than me and she has been at Sacred Heart a hell of a lot longer than me!!!!! (NOOOOO)But hopefully there is two positions, one for me, one for her. And he says he is interviewing 5. So that means I have to be better than 3 people. And he then tells me "asa friend" that stuff I need to work on for my interview. That I talked to fast (we all know that!), and that I need to focus on my teaching when I talk about my interests and what I do. And that he liked why I adopted (um ok) and thinks its a great story to have on my side (ummmm story?? try my real life). So I am SOOOO scared. He did say I am one to be interviewed for sure. he said This other lady for sure also. He did mention one other name that was a 2nd grade teacher at a different catholic school, but she was let go because of budget, but then now her position is open again, so he even wondered if maybe they just didnt want HER! So that little bit of doubt is good for my side. And he didnt mention any other "former sacred heart people" applying, so I think "C" and I are seriously the strongest candidates. But I am scared. What if for some reason the 3rd grade teacher doesnt leave (she has until tomorrow to say for sure...seriously?! COME ON!!!) Then theres only one spot. Then "C" will get it for sure!!!
argh. BUT
on the good side. I talked with the teacher I worked with last year and she will write me one. Then I called my former priest who used to be the priest at this school who the Principal absolutely adores, and then I got my supervisor plus long time family friend from my "home" parish to write me letters too. Then I went to UND and got my supervisors letter from my supervisor from student teaching letter. So hopefully all that will make a difference
Which brings me on another rampage....
when I graduated....noone told me that I could copy references and that I could copy it and use it for several jobs, and for instance that I could get my supervisor student teaching ladys reference. I didnt know that!!! Did they tell me and I didnt hear it? Did I totally miss it somewhere??? Or did they just not say???? I had a letter from my student teacher cooperating teacher...but freaking a gave it to my job I applied to a long time ago, and now I have it no more. And also one from same priest as I mentioned before. Granted I can get a new one from my priest, but I dont think I can hunt down my former cooperating teacher from 6 years ago and have her write me a letter! She probably doesnt even remember me!!!!!!
ugh.
I just hope I am doing everything I can to help me get this job. sigh...............
ok I am done and I am going to watch some Days of our Lives. that always makes me happier with life.
OH! Clomid update!!! I had a great big headache yesterday. Today nothing major but a headache again. At least no hot flashes yet. Thank God! I am irritable. Brent and I had a HUGE ass fight last night over the phone about In Laws. Go figure. grrr. Anyway.....I am peacing out.
Heres my story...first go grab a beverage and a snack, I feel a long post coming on......
Said principal and said school emailed me the other day saying he does not have my references. So I emaile dhim back saying I will run them in on Monday. I did. Then he goes do you have a minute, can we talk? And I was like yes.
Principal: Is your van running, do you need to shut it off
me: (thinking oh shit, my boys in the van I cant shut it off, but I want to talk NOW in case he doesnt get a chance to later on, so I turn on the DVD player in the van and run in side)
Principal: so hows your summer what ar eyou doing
me: I stay at home with my boys
P: whos watching them now
M:the dvd player (thinking, well he knows they are with me, but the dvd player is playing in the van)
P: oh we cant do this now
M no its fine! Seriously they are ok, lets
P: they cant be home alone
M (OH MY GOD HE THINKS I ABUSE MY KIDS OR SOMETHING!) Oh no! They are in the van!! watching a movie! They are seriously fine!!!!!!!
P: oh! I was wondering! I just didnt see anyone in there!
M (Wanting to DIE!!!!)
Anyway, so I dont have to go into play format for the rest of it but he basically tells me that there is now probably a second position open. 3rd grade. (YESSSSSSSSSSSS) and he really wants me aboard. But then he said something about my file lacking stuff. I am like what! well then he says it does not have a lot of references about my teaching and etc. There are good ones about my character, but nothing really strong about my teaching. And he says I need to focus more on my teaching. And then he tells me this other lady who has worked at Sacred Heart for a while now kind of as a para or something also applied for this job!!! I am like F me silly!!! Are you serious!!!! She has WAY more experience than me and she has been at Sacred Heart a hell of a lot longer than me!!!!! (NOOOOO)But hopefully there is two positions, one for me, one for her. And he says he is interviewing 5. So that means I have to be better than 3 people. And he then tells me "asa friend" that stuff I need to work on for my interview. That I talked to fast (we all know that!), and that I need to focus on my teaching when I talk about my interests and what I do. And that he liked why I adopted (um ok) and thinks its a great story to have on my side (ummmm story?? try my real life). So I am SOOOO scared. He did say I am one to be interviewed for sure. he said This other lady for sure also. He did mention one other name that was a 2nd grade teacher at a different catholic school, but she was let go because of budget, but then now her position is open again, so he even wondered if maybe they just didnt want HER! So that little bit of doubt is good for my side. And he didnt mention any other "former sacred heart people" applying, so I think "C" and I are seriously the strongest candidates. But I am scared. What if for some reason the 3rd grade teacher doesnt leave (she has until tomorrow to say for sure...seriously?! COME ON!!!) Then theres only one spot. Then "C" will get it for sure!!!
argh. BUT
on the good side. I talked with the teacher I worked with last year and she will write me one. Then I called my former priest who used to be the priest at this school who the Principal absolutely adores, and then I got my supervisor plus long time family friend from my "home" parish to write me letters too. Then I went to UND and got my supervisors letter from my supervisor from student teaching letter. So hopefully all that will make a difference
Which brings me on another rampage....
when I graduated....noone told me that I could copy references and that I could copy it and use it for several jobs, and for instance that I could get my supervisor student teaching ladys reference. I didnt know that!!! Did they tell me and I didnt hear it? Did I totally miss it somewhere??? Or did they just not say???? I had a letter from my student teacher cooperating teacher...but freaking a gave it to my job I applied to a long time ago, and now I have it no more. And also one from same priest as I mentioned before. Granted I can get a new one from my priest, but I dont think I can hunt down my former cooperating teacher from 6 years ago and have her write me a letter! She probably doesnt even remember me!!!!!!
ugh.
I just hope I am doing everything I can to help me get this job. sigh...............
ok I am done and I am going to watch some Days of our Lives. that always makes me happier with life.
OH! Clomid update!!! I had a great big headache yesterday. Today nothing major but a headache again. At least no hot flashes yet. Thank God! I am irritable. Brent and I had a HUGE ass fight last night over the phone about In Laws. Go figure. grrr. Anyway.....I am peacing out.
Saturday, June 27, 2009
Here I go again on my own.....
Llike a drifter I was born to walk alone!!!
Ok thats not true....but thats a great song!!!!! But it's true....here I go again. I picked up my prescription for clomid from Walmart today. Today is cd 2. sigh. I didnt actually want to start this, this early. I wanted to wait for after the 4th. I thought I would have to take provera and all that to get my period...but them wham! All of a sudden, after a good old romp around (yes you are correct on what that is suppose to mean!!!), I am bleeding! Strange. Oh TMI. sorry.
So here I go. Taking clomid on monday. You know I will chronicle it all.....even if you dont want to hear it....so if you dont want to hear it....stay away for about a month. hehe.
I dont know. The weird thing is that I am not even in....well...whats the word.....maybe life would be easier right now if I wouldnt get pregnant. Yo uknow? Life is so busy and hectic with the boys. If I get this job, and plus be a cheer coach, take care of a house and 2 boys...while being pregnant?!?! Plus be a non crabby wife....come on...even now I am struggeling with that!!! haha. I dont know. Maybe I am just coming to terms that I wont maybe ever be pregnant, and my mind is just accepting that so now when I am trying to get pregnant all over again, it seems weird to me. before I wanted to be pregnant more than anything. Seriously I probably would have stolen a baby or something crazy. But now....I am just happy. I am. That doesnt mean I dont want more kids....most definitely I am going to have more! But I am actually ok not being pregnant. Who knows, maybe this is the time when I WILL get pregnant...and I keep holding onto that hope. because you know the SECOND I dont want to be pregnant, thats when I will be. So I think thats why I am still going forth with this cycle. I dont want to be, but I am always secretly hoping that I will be.
Who knows!!!!!!! Whatever. :) I am just happy.
Ok thats not true....but thats a great song!!!!! But it's true....here I go again. I picked up my prescription for clomid from Walmart today. Today is cd 2. sigh. I didnt actually want to start this, this early. I wanted to wait for after the 4th. I thought I would have to take provera and all that to get my period...but them wham! All of a sudden, after a good old romp around (yes you are correct on what that is suppose to mean!!!), I am bleeding! Strange. Oh TMI. sorry.
So here I go. Taking clomid on monday. You know I will chronicle it all.....even if you dont want to hear it....so if you dont want to hear it....stay away for about a month. hehe.
I dont know. The weird thing is that I am not even in....well...whats the word.....maybe life would be easier right now if I wouldnt get pregnant. Yo uknow? Life is so busy and hectic with the boys. If I get this job, and plus be a cheer coach, take care of a house and 2 boys...while being pregnant?!?! Plus be a non crabby wife....come on...even now I am struggeling with that!!! haha. I dont know. Maybe I am just coming to terms that I wont maybe ever be pregnant, and my mind is just accepting that so now when I am trying to get pregnant all over again, it seems weird to me. before I wanted to be pregnant more than anything. Seriously I probably would have stolen a baby or something crazy. But now....I am just happy. I am. That doesnt mean I dont want more kids....most definitely I am going to have more! But I am actually ok not being pregnant. Who knows, maybe this is the time when I WILL get pregnant...and I keep holding onto that hope. because you know the SECOND I dont want to be pregnant, thats when I will be. So I think thats why I am still going forth with this cycle. I dont want to be, but I am always secretly hoping that I will be.
Who knows!!!!!!! Whatever. :) I am just happy.
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
A new side of my husband
So I worked with brent on Sunday night over night. And I have to say, it was a different experience. I had never seen this side of him before.
He was just very confident and very sure of everything that he does and says. You know how at work, someone always comes up to you and says, by the way, can you take care of that?? And you sit and grumble amongst yourselves how that is not your job and you have a billion other things to do?? Well Brent actually was like that is not our job. Found the SOP that said that was not required in our job, told and asked our supervisor to make sure that was not our job, and so we didnt have to do it. Like there is no I am going to sit here and complain. Brent actually did something about it. It was amazing. Some people were goofing around inappropiatly with the needles, and I was like oh my gosh! How rude, and Brent actually said something to them about packing it up and go practice where there are no participants watching you!! I was shocked!!! Seriously!!! I was so proud that he was not the average joe who sits and grumbles under his breathe how he hates this and that. He actually did something about it!!!!!!!!!!!
sigh....I love my husband!!!!!
He was just very confident and very sure of everything that he does and says. You know how at work, someone always comes up to you and says, by the way, can you take care of that?? And you sit and grumble amongst yourselves how that is not your job and you have a billion other things to do?? Well Brent actually was like that is not our job. Found the SOP that said that was not required in our job, told and asked our supervisor to make sure that was not our job, and so we didnt have to do it. Like there is no I am going to sit here and complain. Brent actually did something about it. It was amazing. Some people were goofing around inappropiatly with the needles, and I was like oh my gosh! How rude, and Brent actually said something to them about packing it up and go practice where there are no participants watching you!! I was shocked!!! Seriously!!! I was so proud that he was not the average joe who sits and grumbles under his breathe how he hates this and that. He actually did something about it!!!!!!!!!!!
sigh....I love my husband!!!!!
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Almost there perfect life!!!
Ok so two days ago I get hired as a cheer coach!!!! I am SO flippin excited, because those who knows me....well they know that cheerleading is basically who I am, what I love, and what I live through! Everything about cheerleading excites me! And the best thing is, that I actually honestly didnt care if I got this job or not, because I cant lie, it has been a while since I had anything ot do with cheerleading, so I am scared. I am nervous about getting back in the groove of things, and everything. So I go to the interview, I think I do ok...maybe I little bit too excited once I get talking....but they call me 2 hours later, and he said it was unanimous that they wanted me on the squad!! I am pumped.
So after I got this job, I was thinking.....that if I do get this teaching job....my life will be perfect....in a total non perfect sense! haha
I will have a husband, kids, be a cheer coach, a teacher, and have a house, a mom van. My kids are involved in sports (well ok my oldest is). I seriously couldnt ask for more without being selfish! Of course I do want and hope for more.....but I would be just happy! Just content, and that takes a lot for me to be. usually I am always wanting more. But I would be soooooo happy.
which is what scares me. I always feel like I cant be too happy or my wheel of bad luck with start again. Like I feel like I wont get this job because then I will finally be happy and content. That I am asking for too much. I know thats nuts, and I keep going through everything in my head, and honestly there is no way I could NOT get this job....but worse things have happened. What if enrollment decreases all of a sudden. What if some alumni came along. What if someone's like daughter or granddaughter applies. Thats the bad thing about this school. It is honestly a who knows who thing. Thats how I got as far as I did. Because a family friend was the principals neighbor, and the prinicpal absolutely loves her. (in a good sense! Not creepy), and my priest growing up (as in high school growing up) WAS the priest there before. So they both called the principal and said give her a chance. She is amazing. So....what if someone else did that?? I am so nervous. I am scared to pray, because is that selfish to ask something like that? Is that horrible to ask for something that would make my life "perfect". You know its funny....I bet you 100 bucks that if I didnt really care about this job, and that if I cared less either way....I would get it for sure. It seems like that always happens. When I want something super bad...it never happens. But when I am like eh....could care less.....then I get the job.
so maybe I should start saying.....eh....being a teacher....I could take it or leave it. No big issue. Who cares. (AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. ok thats me screaming in frustration!!! I just wish we could interview and get this crap over with. Either give me the job or say I am a loser and move on).
sigh
on a better note....the bridal shower is coming along FABULOUSLY!!!!! I am loving it SO MUCH!!! I am such a party planner!!! hahaha
So after I got this job, I was thinking.....that if I do get this teaching job....my life will be perfect....in a total non perfect sense! haha
I will have a husband, kids, be a cheer coach, a teacher, and have a house, a mom van. My kids are involved in sports (well ok my oldest is). I seriously couldnt ask for more without being selfish! Of course I do want and hope for more.....but I would be just happy! Just content, and that takes a lot for me to be. usually I am always wanting more. But I would be soooooo happy.
which is what scares me. I always feel like I cant be too happy or my wheel of bad luck with start again. Like I feel like I wont get this job because then I will finally be happy and content. That I am asking for too much. I know thats nuts, and I keep going through everything in my head, and honestly there is no way I could NOT get this job....but worse things have happened. What if enrollment decreases all of a sudden. What if some alumni came along. What if someone's like daughter or granddaughter applies. Thats the bad thing about this school. It is honestly a who knows who thing. Thats how I got as far as I did. Because a family friend was the principals neighbor, and the prinicpal absolutely loves her. (in a good sense! Not creepy), and my priest growing up (as in high school growing up) WAS the priest there before. So they both called the principal and said give her a chance. She is amazing. So....what if someone else did that?? I am so nervous. I am scared to pray, because is that selfish to ask something like that? Is that horrible to ask for something that would make my life "perfect". You know its funny....I bet you 100 bucks that if I didnt really care about this job, and that if I cared less either way....I would get it for sure. It seems like that always happens. When I want something super bad...it never happens. But when I am like eh....could care less.....then I get the job.
so maybe I should start saying.....eh....being a teacher....I could take it or leave it. No big issue. Who cares. (AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. ok thats me screaming in frustration!!! I just wish we could interview and get this crap over with. Either give me the job or say I am a loser and move on).
sigh
on a better note....the bridal shower is coming along FABULOUSLY!!!!! I am loving it SO MUCH!!! I am such a party planner!!! hahaha
Thursday, June 11, 2009
Miss Planner
So, I am planning a bridal shower for my friend, and man, I must say, I am on a ROLL!!!! I have such good ideas. Makes me wonder where all these ideas where when I got married. Ok not that I would throw myself a bridal shower, but like for the wedding.....I am still kind of upset how things turned out.....OK! NO! I am not upset with that fact that I am married! HAHAHAHA. I am upset with the decor and that I really could have done so much more. Awe well. This used to bug me sooooooo unbelievably bad before. Now.....not so much. I think I am just h appy that I DID get married, and honestly it was a cute wedding. I liked it. I enjoyed it. I had fun! And that is all that matters.
But man I am having LOADS of fun planning. If I wasnt meant to be a teacher, I would be a party planner. Seriously, I LOVE planning and hosting a party. Not kidding. I go NUTS with decor and ambience. I want every party to have a feel. and I want the guests to walk with a certain feeling. I want the party to reflect the event and I want fun!!!!
Anyway, thats all I have to say about that. back to my party planning!!!!!
But man I am having LOADS of fun planning. If I wasnt meant to be a teacher, I would be a party planner. Seriously, I LOVE planning and hosting a party. Not kidding. I go NUTS with decor and ambience. I want every party to have a feel. and I want the guests to walk with a certain feeling. I want the party to reflect the event and I want fun!!!!
Anyway, thats all I have to say about that. back to my party planning!!!!!
Monday, June 8, 2009
AHHHHHHHHHH and one more AHHHHHHHH
Ok I know I should NOT get excited. Bad Amy! Your getting excited again!!!!!!
But!!!! So I get home from our weekend with my parents, and there is a letter from a school I REALLY REALLY REALLY want to teach at. It is a catholic school, and I wont mention the name...in case someone googles it, and then ends up here. Ya know?! That would be embarrissing. But it rhymes with bacred mart. And its a catholic school.....get it?! It doesnt matter anyway.....
So I get this letter addressed to me, and its from the principal. I am like what now....I owe more money (devon goes to school there too....and yes we are late on tuition payments....sorry!!) But I open it up.....and there is a HAND WRITTEN note telling me there is a position at this place and he wants me to apply and get my stuff in. Ok so your thinking....so.......but it kind of works like this....I was suppose to teach there last year but enrollment decreased, so I lost my job like the week before school. And this school TOTALLY works on a you need to know the school, parents, and kids, type of deal before you work here....AND he totally said that I could have a job here if any were to open up in the future.....I wuold still have to go through the process. blah blah
So I am now thinking....I HAVE THIS JOB!!!! I WILL BE A TEACHER FINALLLLLLY!!!!!
But so why cant I get excited?? well obviously nothing is for until I sign that contract. I still have to wait out eh stupid interview process to go through formalities. Something could go wrong. This is a second section of 2nd grade. If enrollment all of a sudden decreases, there goes my job....AGAIN! Also, what if someone comes out of the wood work......you never know!!!
BUT the pluses on my side....I have subbed there this year, worked there last year....I fit into that school like a family. My son goes to school there, I know ALL the staff and students. I walk down the halls with kids saying HI MRS. H!!!!!!!! Seriously. Nobody would fit this job better than me.
But alas I must wait...........There will be the inital looking at applications and interviews which he said will take a couple of weeks, then he will select 5 to go infront of the committee and they will decide. Trust me, I have been through this before....and I am NOT scared. I am so excited. Thats the best part. I have done this ALL before. I am already thinking of answers to questions! I know the committee. Unless God truly hates me......I am going to get this job. kiddin......but for real..........
I am so excited, I cant stop thinking of it!!!!! I guess I will just have to wait it though. Hopefully by July I will know something, about an interview or something. hehe. CANT WAIT!!!!!!!!!!! PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
But!!!! So I get home from our weekend with my parents, and there is a letter from a school I REALLY REALLY REALLY want to teach at. It is a catholic school, and I wont mention the name...in case someone googles it, and then ends up here. Ya know?! That would be embarrissing. But it rhymes with bacred mart. And its a catholic school.....get it?! It doesnt matter anyway.....
So I get this letter addressed to me, and its from the principal. I am like what now....I owe more money (devon goes to school there too....and yes we are late on tuition payments....sorry!!) But I open it up.....and there is a HAND WRITTEN note telling me there is a position at this place and he wants me to apply and get my stuff in. Ok so your thinking....so.......but it kind of works like this....I was suppose to teach there last year but enrollment decreased, so I lost my job like the week before school. And this school TOTALLY works on a you need to know the school, parents, and kids, type of deal before you work here....AND he totally said that I could have a job here if any were to open up in the future.....I wuold still have to go through the process. blah blah
So I am now thinking....I HAVE THIS JOB!!!! I WILL BE A TEACHER FINALLLLLLY!!!!!
But so why cant I get excited?? well obviously nothing is for until I sign that contract. I still have to wait out eh stupid interview process to go through formalities. Something could go wrong. This is a second section of 2nd grade. If enrollment all of a sudden decreases, there goes my job....AGAIN! Also, what if someone comes out of the wood work......you never know!!!
BUT the pluses on my side....I have subbed there this year, worked there last year....I fit into that school like a family. My son goes to school there, I know ALL the staff and students. I walk down the halls with kids saying HI MRS. H!!!!!!!! Seriously. Nobody would fit this job better than me.
But alas I must wait...........There will be the inital looking at applications and interviews which he said will take a couple of weeks, then he will select 5 to go infront of the committee and they will decide. Trust me, I have been through this before....and I am NOT scared. I am so excited. Thats the best part. I have done this ALL before. I am already thinking of answers to questions! I know the committee. Unless God truly hates me......I am going to get this job. kiddin......but for real..........
I am so excited, I cant stop thinking of it!!!!! I guess I will just have to wait it though. Hopefully by July I will know something, about an interview or something. hehe. CANT WAIT!!!!!!!!!!! PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
bad pushy mom!?
Ok so Devon started hockey today (well it is just hockey camp, but it is the first hockey experience for him. Last year was more learn to skate) Well there he was all dressed up in his hockey gear and on the ice and I was so proud of him, and.......he wasnt moving. Its ok....he will move any second now.......any second......come on.....anytime..........Oh my gosh devon MOVE ALREADY!
I am ashamed to say I was mad the entire hockey camp because everyone was doing laps on the rink and doing whatever drill they do in hockey, and there was devon......I think he moved maybe 25 feet the entire half hour. Like seriously, it was bad. He didnt move out of the blue line and the goal net. Ugh. I am ashamed of myself, but I was so frustrated. Granted I didnt say anything, and I wasnt yelling, but I was embarressed this is my kid. Kids were skating past him like he wasnt eveen there. I was embarressed for him. He still wasnt even moving his legs at all. sigh.
I just dont know what to do. I obviously I do not want to pull him from camp because I am scared then he will never learn to skate....and plus that was like freaking 200 some bucks for the camp PLUS the hockey gear!!!!!! ugh.
I think I am going to buy him inline skates to help him practice because obviously it is summer so I cant take him skating anymore during free skate!
sigh. Shame on me. I am ashamed I was so dissapointed in myself. Awe well, at least the best part is that I will try and teach him how to skate by the end of the summer!!!!
I am ashamed to say I was mad the entire hockey camp because everyone was doing laps on the rink and doing whatever drill they do in hockey, and there was devon......I think he moved maybe 25 feet the entire half hour. Like seriously, it was bad. He didnt move out of the blue line and the goal net. Ugh. I am ashamed of myself, but I was so frustrated. Granted I didnt say anything, and I wasnt yelling, but I was embarressed this is my kid. Kids were skating past him like he wasnt eveen there. I was embarressed for him. He still wasnt even moving his legs at all. sigh.
I just dont know what to do. I obviously I do not want to pull him from camp because I am scared then he will never learn to skate....and plus that was like freaking 200 some bucks for the camp PLUS the hockey gear!!!!!! ugh.
I think I am going to buy him inline skates to help him practice because obviously it is summer so I cant take him skating anymore during free skate!
sigh. Shame on me. I am ashamed I was so dissapointed in myself. Awe well, at least the best part is that I will try and teach him how to skate by the end of the summer!!!!
Monday, June 1, 2009
forgetfulness
Ok last night I was thinking of my entry for the blog for today, and wouldnt you know it....I plum forgot it!!!
Drat.
Anyway, Onto different things, So this summer I am taking the time I menu planning and planning when I am going to clean what and stuff. Hopefully this will help me get organized and make me not go crazy this summer. That is my biggest problem I think. Well I know. I try to take too much on at one time, and then I get overwhelmed because it seems like nothing is getting done or I finally get one thing done, and it seems I have to turn around and do it again. So I have certain chores set out for certain days. And I have to say it is super nice because already today I was doing my monday chores (laundry, clean counters off, wash bedding, and basically pick up from the mess from the weekend) and I am looking around thinking ah! I need to clean the toilets, and then I am like wait...they are tuesdays chores.; They can wait until then. Then I see my bedroom needs dusting, then think again, thats wednesdays. So I am actually kind of smiling and thinking I am can do this. I am always spending SO much time cleaning the house that I never get a lot of time to play with my kids or sit and lounge with them infront of Noggin (preschool on TV, I LOVE THAT NETWORK!!!). So instead of an entire day I only cleaned for an hour, and I am done now until tomorrow. I already know what I am having for lunch AND supper and all the ingrediants are int he fridge or freezer or cupboard because I went shopping yesterday for all my weeks ingrediants for all my recipes. So again, no worrying. I feel great!!! Actually it is 10....and I dont know what to do with myself!!!!!! lol!!!!!!!
Drat.
Anyway, Onto different things, So this summer I am taking the time I menu planning and planning when I am going to clean what and stuff. Hopefully this will help me get organized and make me not go crazy this summer. That is my biggest problem I think. Well I know. I try to take too much on at one time, and then I get overwhelmed because it seems like nothing is getting done or I finally get one thing done, and it seems I have to turn around and do it again. So I have certain chores set out for certain days. And I have to say it is super nice because already today I was doing my monday chores (laundry, clean counters off, wash bedding, and basically pick up from the mess from the weekend) and I am looking around thinking ah! I need to clean the toilets, and then I am like wait...they are tuesdays chores.; They can wait until then. Then I see my bedroom needs dusting, then think again, thats wednesdays. So I am actually kind of smiling and thinking I am can do this. I am always spending SO much time cleaning the house that I never get a lot of time to play with my kids or sit and lounge with them infront of Noggin (preschool on TV, I LOVE THAT NETWORK!!!). So instead of an entire day I only cleaned for an hour, and I am done now until tomorrow. I already know what I am having for lunch AND supper and all the ingrediants are int he fridge or freezer or cupboard because I went shopping yesterday for all my weeks ingrediants for all my recipes. So again, no worrying. I feel great!!! Actually it is 10....and I dont know what to do with myself!!!!!! lol!!!!!!!
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