checking off my list!!!!

Woohoo. I am getting excited! Things are being checked off my crafting list like you wouldnt believe!!!! Here is an update!

Ok here is my tiny peanut. I cant post a post about crafting without my crafting peanut sidekick helper!!! haha. Apparently crafting and shopping can wear a girl out!!!!!

This is above our bed. I got the expression from Uppercase Living. Of course I had my weariness about them, and I was worried about getting it and putting things on my wall. BUT now that I actually did buy a few expression, I really do like it, and plan on getting more!

 This is mine and Brents "thing". In his ring I had engraved now and always. Because forever couldnt fit. haha. BUT it has always been our thing. Now and forever we will together. No I found this in Uppercase Living, and I was excited to get it. Well Daisies are also our thing and I found it Michaels, super cheap. and it was easy and pie. Just peel and stick!!!! The center of the daisies are little mirrors. Just enough to catch the light and make it sparkle. And you all know me! I love the sparkle!!! I like it!!!

OK and since Brent and My thing is Daisies, I decided that the daisy puff paint I was working on will go into our bedroom. So I took the dried puff paint painting and spray painted it a silverish brown color to match and contrast with the burnt red color. 

This is the painting close up and trying to dry. Yep I painted in my basement by the way. Pretty sure I got high. haha

I was pretty proud of myself! It looks pretty darn neat. 

Not the nest quality of picture, but this is it!

And this is it on our wall. I wasnt thinking, and I should have taken a bigger picture of our whole bedroom, but awe well!

This is after an idea my friend Taryn gave me! Since the silver shoes were a bust......wanna know why?!?!?! BECAUSE I AM AN IDIOT. Well I am not sure if I posted this or not earlier, but there was a reason why I didnt wear those silver shoes.....they hurt like a little bitch!!!!! Seriously. After I was all done painting them and whatever, I put them on and barely could walk around in my kitchen!!! It hurt like a mofo. SO I started over. I didnt take more pictures, but awe well. OK So I went to old navy. Got this hideous pair of shoes for literally 4.99!!!!! Then Taryn suggested if she were to do it, she would do it in black!!! SO HELLO! I do black all the time!!!! SO I DID IT! I painted it in black!!!!! and these shoes are pretty for the most part comfortable! I like how they turned out. I should try and take pics of them on my feet. And they are pretty darn neat. LOVE THEM! So thank you Taryn. Thanks for letting me steal your ideas! hahaha.

And of course my little muffin. oh boy. He is my little love bandit. 

I dont have a pic of Devon. He has been super crabby lately and him and I are kinda at odds recently. Not sure why. We just kinda fight and don't get along very well. Which, I cant lie, makes me nervous. He is only 7 years old. If we cant get along now, how is it going to be when he is 16?!?!?! Yah I am scared. ugh. I hope him and I can get a bit closer soon. 

SO Brent starts his new job February 13. He is putting in his 2 weeks notice today. Kinda makes me nervous I guess. I don know. I know that he will do great!!!!

SO I had this dream the other night that I was pregnant. I could feel the baby kick me. And it was like......so unreal and real.....and  hated it. I remember I hated feeling that baby kick me. I wanted him out. And yes I knew it was a him. I know I will have a boy. Somehow...someway.....get my drift............

Anyway, he was kicking me. ANd it hurt. I didn't like it. BUt at the same time, I got what everyone else who has ever been pregnant would talk about. And "WHAT" they talk about...I don't even know. I just got it. I am not sure what this means. I think it's me just honestly being 98% ok of not ever getting pregnant. I know.....my time is limited. It is. With my lady town and it going down hill......I don't know how much longer I have with them. There are no more hopes of a surprise baby. Of a miracle. I don't know. I might try something one day.....but if this situation works out, then I probably won't. I am not sure. Then again, I feel like I am praying for a situation that might not come true or maybe it's not supposed to. But again.....its like I have this something extra special....I just KNOW when things are supposed or will happen. I mean I don't, know WHEN, but I just know. And this....I have known for a long time. And I know it will happen. 

Alright, thats all for today! I feel like crap. Have a touch of the fu, but wanted to update my blog. I am excited to craft again!!!! It makes me happy. I am going to start making some baby things for a baby shower come February. WEE! makes me excited!!!!!

dog days are over

man I just realized last night almost always my post titles are song titles or parts of songs....haha. I am a nut job. That is just the song I am listening to right now. I dont know. Things are taking a change here in the Havelka Household. I might be getting some news here soon. What....I guess I cant say yet, because I am super nervous and I honestly dont know how to feel about it yet. Honestly. I dont know. It's so nuts. It was about a previous situation, that fell through, and now might be coming true and happening.....get my drift?!?!?!

Anyway, so little miss crafting bee that I have become......I have pictures and updates for you all!!!!!!

bah so sorry about the quality of these pictures. Ok Here is my canvas picture that I going to paint. At this point right here I just freehanded a daisy doodle with swirls and stars and circles on a canvas with pencil.

again here is peanut. She thinks she is miss crafting princess too.

who am I to deny her.

here is the overall picture. Canvas...freehanded picture about in the middleish. I kinda laugh because I was doing this while we were watching Harry Potter. haha. It gave me my inspiration. At first I was just going to do all bubbles or swirls. Then I decided I needed to add a daisy.

I then puffy painted over the freehand design. the concept of this is you paint over the puffy paint, and then you get this design thats uplifted or something. I think it will look pretty cool because I have a silverish color to spray paint!

oh my....I was staring at this picture for the longest time trying to figure this out!!! Brent was rocking zaylee, and I was trying to take pictures. BAH. Dont some people realize momma needs to do her thing!!!!! haha. Anyway, I finally remembered, this is me trying to hot glue magnets on my glass beads. 

these are the magnets glued onto the back of the glass bead/marlbles/rocks,...whatever the hell they are. 

Here is a finished product I made for my friend. It says Anderson. 

here is part of my alphabet. I only got up to O because Zaylee kept trying to help. 

a close up. Looks pretty neat. I think next time I would do a darker background (this time I did pink sparkly paper with silver letters. I would do like black paper with silver letters or something)

hehehe my famous ALH! hehehe. 

crafting list

Ok here is how this will go. I have 8 crafts. I want to finish this all by February 24th, which means I have
5 weeks to complete my crafts. Here is what I have

Glitter shoes (granted I already started, but I NEED TO FINISH), thus my problem always
Letter Magnets
Valentine Wreath
Wreath for my new niece to be
Credit Card picture keychains
Tile Coasters
A painting
A puffy paint painting

So 5 weeks. 8 crafts, plus my regularly scheduled life.....hmmm can I do. I am going to do everything in my DAMNDEST to show brent I can.
the challenge is on biotch.
(yah ok it was unnecessary for me to swear, but awe well!)

Crafting Girl: shake it for me girl

hehe. I was listening to that song, Country Girl....shake it for me girl...and I just kinda giggled.

Anyway, So AMY got her CRAFT groove back! weeeee! I went to Michaels yesterday, and Pretty sure brent is not too happy with me. Whatever. I am sick of his crabbiness. He has become so crazy lately with this new job switch and everything. ugh.

anyway...here are my new found treasures:

Wow they turned out dark. Sorry about that. Anyway so here is my pile!!! WEEEEEEE

Here are magnets because I am making letter magnets with those big glass beads you see, I have clear coat for my shoes, I have glue to glue on my black ribbon around the ugly red on my glitter shoes, I found the paint to paint a few paintings for my laundry room. Spray paint for my sisters bridal shower coaster. Sponge paint brushes for my painting.

Here is some Daisy Decals for my wall. I will have to take a pic to show you how it turns out. In the back is a heart Valentine decoration I found. There were 100 day Celebration certificates that I bought for my students because it was just a dollar. 

Yes that is a christmas basket, but it was 90% off! So I go it only for $2.

Those are the letters I am using for my letter magnets, and the paper for the background of my magnets.

Here is my canvas and a super cute clear tote to hold all my treasures while I am working on it. 

Everything I purchased was on super awesome good sale!!! Paint was 3 for a $1. The beads were only a $1 a bag. The canvas for that whole pack was $14. The container was $4. The letter were not on sale, so they wer elike 4.99. boo. But they were SPARKLY so I got those instead. That sparkly paper behind it though was 79 cents!!!!!!! The marker pen was only 2.00. The magnets were only a few bucks. 

I dont know. Brent was making me pissed because he goes you bought all of this stuff for it to just sit and collect dust. So my goal is to make all these projects by the time he leaves. 3 weeks. So here is my challenge. 3 weeks and how many projects am I doing??! 4??? I will count it up and let you know. Can I do it?? Of course. I am Lady Lynn. I can do anything. 

NOTHING beats glitter

hehe. SO I am in love with Pinterest! Seriously. OK and on there are these glitter shoes. I am in the process of making them now! Here is my creation so far......

Ok here is what I started with. They were ugly. They are monsterous. Simon.....ah Simon, I miss that dog, got ahold of this one shoe. I bought these a while back, thinking that I was cool and wore them for a couple of Valentines Days. Obviously they don't look nice anymore. I honestly dont even know why I have them still!!! BUT it works because I pulled them from my basement.......and let the craft begin!

SO I mixed about equal part of glitter and modge podge....hard to tell because literally I just poured. At first the "concoction" was too Pasty. So I added more Modge Podge until it was a good and easy paintable consistency. I painted away! This is one coat. The directions call for several coats. Granted right now it looks like it covered it good, but it really doesnt. It does need several coats. But I was SO impressed with the first coat already!! And honestly, the glitter DOES NOT pick off or fall off! And the shoe is still bendable!

My honey bee. Of course she sits ON MY LAP when I am doing crafts. ugh. Awe well, when she is older she can actually help me, and that makes me excited. And when I was taking pictures of the shoes, she kept on going CHEESE!!!! So I had to take one of us. hehe. 

This is the second coat from last night. It is milky looking because I had JUST painted it. It is looking awesome. The only thing I am unsure about is the red trim around the shoe.....I am not a fan of that....I dont know. I just dont wear red a lot ya know?! I am going to pop my Michaels I think tonight to see if I can get some sort of ribbon or trim that I can glue/Modge podge on.....hmmmmm I might need to sew it....shit. Who knows. I will see. AND the best thing is, if it falls to hell....this project literally cost me 2.99. I had the ugly shoes. I had modge podge, and I just bought a jug of glitter for 2.99. But so far so good, as long as I can get the red trim figured out..............

WEEE I LOVE GLITTER!

protest

cant believe government is doing this. I am in on the protest. I am not blogging today.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Wikipedia:SOPA_initiative/Learn_more

swallow it down

like a jagged little pill. Or something like that. The song from Alanis Morisette. So I started today to take my mock estrogen pill in the morning. I am not sure if that will make much of a difference, but I figure it will help control my moods during the day more than it has been. So far so good I think. I just need to get my body in alignment.
So here is my plan.
I will continue to work out. Check.
Take my estrogen pill in the morning. Check.
Take my Melaleuca Vitamins in the morning and night. To do. BUT I did order them.
Continue to eat healthy. Check.

I just need to stay pretty strict to this. I have been eating too much school food for lunch, which sucks. But I always forget to pack mine honestly!

SO are you wondering what my new found Melaleuca Vitamins are??? Well it is this company that makes everything out of the Melaleuca plant. I started purchasing stuff from them, just to have a healthier life and a healthier family. Nothing is toxic. Nothing is made from chemicals. There are so many products also. Cleaning products, vitamins, some snack food, meal replacement, body stuff, medicines. You name it, they have it. I am giving it a try. I cant loose. I am tired of being sick and not feeling well, I am tired of my family being sick and not feeling well, and most of all, I am tired of being tired. SO I figured I would give it a try. If you have questions, let me know. They have an online site to order from. Also I figure with my friend, LUSH! yummy yummy. Again with the natural products. I love Lush for my body. I would gladly tell you about Lush also!

anyway, what else......so my moods. They are getting there. Last night and a bit this morning I have been so beyond crabby and upset and seriously going to flip a shit. I hate this up and down. driving me nuts. what else......I dont know! I havent weighed myself in a while, so I am not sure how I am doing. Last week and the week before I did pretty good with working out.

I figure once Brent leaves, I am going to take a room by room and really clean and organize it. I want my house clean and organized!  alright, off to Pinterest! (If you wanna know more about that too...I can let ya know!!!!!)

ode to my feelings

ok I am going to try and explain how I feel. One day I will look back and be like wow Amy. You are a loony toon. The reason why I am explaining this, because I am actually hoping I can not be so crazy or something afterwards. Or something.

I have never felt this way before, except one time. It was when Brent and I were doing fertility treatments. IVF for the first time. brent was gone for Basic Training. I was doing the shots on my own. Well it was time to trigger, which means that soon the Dr. was going to take all my eggs. Well I found out that I had 75 eggs. Yah. Unreal. Most normal people do like 4 max maybe 6. 75 was NOT good. Well then they were talking about taking my eggs, then postponing implantation. I was so upset. Then on the drive home, I went into the ditch. Then I couldnt get my car out. Some complete stranger picked me up and brought me home. Then I couldnt get a tow truck. It was horrible. I just crawled into bed and pulled the covers over my eyes and I bawled. I bawled and cried and didnt want to get out of bed. It was horrible. I could slept and stayed there forever.

Well now is kinda similar. But no reason. I mean there is a reason. I mean its the shot. I am feeling better than I did  yesterday. yesterday was bad. And I should feel grateful. The dr said I could have hotflashes, migraines or whatever the hell else. but I just feel like I cant and dont want to do anything. Just lay in bed. Cover my head and talk to NOONE. Not even my kids. Its bad. I am trying so hard too.
bah. gotta take care of screaming baby. will write more later.

AHHH You little bitch!!!!!

I had my shot today. YES. THE shot. The shot that puts me in menopause. Tonight. I feel like I am growing crazy. I can tell the...I dont know what it is??! Its taking its effect. The Dr. said this will be hard. He gave me a prescrip of tylenol #3 with codeine because he said it will be hard before it gets better. My pain will be worse before it gets better. All I want to do right now is cry. Brent is gone for guard this weekend. Its almost better. I am a basket case. I just need to focus on being on a great mom and not being crazy in front of the kids.

Anyway, so I am watching Whats your number. I love it. I love a show that shows a big town gal tryin to make it. I dont know. I swear sometimes I was born in the wrong era. The wrong time. The wrong place. I wasnt meant for this. I wasnt meant to live here and now. I love the shows about Big Town Girls. LIke New York. or Boston. Or whatever.

Bah, now I am rambling. Ok I should not blog when my emotions are all over. bah.

hahahahahahahaahhahaahaahhahahahahahahahahahahaha I just realized my phones name is Bailey Spaulding according to this silly Facebook thing. HILARIOUS!

Slut?! Maybe?! Maybe not?!

Do my nails look like I am a slut-o-rama??????? SHould I get a job on Cinemax After 10?!?! hmmm I wonder if there is good money in it! hahaha kidding.

Bring it on

That was the title of my new blog design. haha and I also thought it was very fitting. Brent just got an official verbal job offer today! Which I am so excited. I am excited for him. Here is how it will break down.
He is working for the Oil Company. He is driving the truck or whatever. He will live there (only a short 332 miles away from where we live) for 2 weeks, work his ass off, and then come home for a full week. He is getting pretty darn good pay, had the ability to move up pretty fast, and he will working hard physically. This kind of stuff really helps him, I dont know, deal with life or something. He loves being physical and being active, and really being out in the field. I can't lie. I am very excited for him. Will I miss him? Yes. Will I be a single mother every 2 weeks? yes. Am I excited about that? well......yes and no. I don't need to explain again, that when things are my way...things go very smoothly. I am the disciplinarian. I am the grease! haha. Brent is the softer one. He is the glue. He holds us all together and really balances me out. So Yes, it will be hard, but I am excited. Sometimes I swear I was meant to live as a single mother, because Lord, I do a damn fine job at it. Honestly, that is why I get so pissed when people......pause for dramatic effect.......say life is so hard blah blah and poor them. Boo hoo. Single mother this and that. I read a quote on Pinterest the other day (ps...LOVE IT!) and it says, pour a drink, put on some lipstick, and suck it up or something. True that! Honestly. I do it because I have to. I dont know. I dont sit and piss and moan. Maybe I am just so hard or something. But I know I need to do what I need to do. Yes I miss Brent. Yes there are times I want to cry because my van is stuck in the driveway, and I have noone to help me. Or I have to mow our HUGE 8 acre lawn by myself......but I do it. I shut up and do it.
ok pause while Amy gets off her soap box.....
thank you
alright. other topics of convo. I love my friends. I just have to say. I hate change. I hate that people and relationships have to change. But I do love the change when someone who I hadn't thought could be close to me or whatever, and then now suddenly is. That makes me super excited and really optimistic. And maybe thats where I come off al bitchy right away because sometimes I am like YES! We can be friends, and then I am like wait, what if I am all like we are friends, and then we arent anymore because they dont want to be. Unsolved mystery.
Oh my gosh. Today, a 6th grader....ok long story. She was supposed to be in Library yesterday, wasnt there for like 10 minutes, along with some other students. I found them in the bathroom area, I told them to get to library, and then some went back, this one girl gave me HUGE attitude and refused to go back. Finally she did. Then after walking down the hall, she turned back and went into the bathroom. I ran back, got her out. Again refusing to move, and then She came back eventually. Principal wasnt in at the time. Then today I emailed him. He told me to give her a bottom line slip. So I did. She refused to sign said she is telling principal on me. I said good! Lets go (she didnt think principal knew). Anyway, so in the office we go back and forth on what she did and didnt do. She eventually accuses me that I wouldnt let her go to the bathroom and she is on her period and that I wanted her to bleed all over. I am like looking at her and want to be like..........are you...SERIOUS. Do you have any idea how it is TO BLEED everywhere because I do. and for one, I would never want to do that to anyone, and 2. pretty sure at 13 you cant BLEED everywhere. But who knows. I never say never. If she had any idea. I know more and have experinced more with lady town than majority. seriously. I want to be like BRING IT girl. whatever. So tonight I get to drink to celebrate and forget memories of idiot teenagers. hahahaha
BRING IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

New Year!

New things right?! Lets hope so. Ok so I need to get better at blogging. A lot of things have happened lately, and I have a lot of thoughts I would like to write down, but I dont have enough time right now to write it.

OK here are several maybe shortened posts in one.......

1. Lady Town Update
SO I know everyone is so concerned about my lady town.....haha. So I did go and have my surgery...oh yah...that was my last post. So Severe Endo. blah blah. Its all over my belly. not just even enclosed in my uterus or tubes or anything. All Over. Dr says if I was like 38 instead of 28 he would take everything out right now. No questions asked. But I am young and he does want things to stay in as much as possible just for the estrogen reason. So I am taking this shot that I will get once every three months. Its Depo Lupron. It will basically shut my ovaries off and put me in menopause. I am excited. I am nervous. I am scared. Then this can go on for about 2 years, around there, then I will probably need to go back in and have a surgery and get cleaned out again. Then repeat. Then after that we have to start looking at taking everything out. I cant keep it in. It kills me because I always thought that maybe I could have a miracle or something happen. It will never happen.

2. Moving on up.....kinda......
Brent is getting a job offer here hopefully next week which will put him in a different town from where we live. He will work there for 2 weeks, come home for a week, and repeat. Again, I am excited, but I am not thrilled. I am excited that he has a new job and a new experience. I cant lie, I am kinda excited that I get his clothes out of his closet.....well some of them....so I can put MY clothes in the closet. I am excited to have the house clean and everything functioning smoothly. I mean come on folks, I love my husband, but I am the oil that makes this machine go. ANd when there isnt rust clogging up the gears, the machine moves slick.

3. I have been born in  different era
I have been saying this for quite a while. I just read The Help, and boy it was amazing. It really got me sucked in and I LOVED IT. Seriously. But it makes me really think and ponder about what would I do if I were in that era. I would love to think and know that I would be the one who would NOT tolerate people being treated poorly by others. I am afraid though that I wouldnt be brave enough or willing enough to stand up and go against the grain. I am sure....I would have a maid. I know I would. Everyone else had one. So I would too. But I would not treat her like shit. She would be my friend and someone who I would love and care for. I know it. In the victorian era (this is an era where I believe I actually belong), of course I am in the rich class....haha......and I wouldnt treat "commoners" as they were called, poorly. I just wouldnt. I am kinda proud of myself for that aspect. I really am. I think I have enough human decency or compassion or something. I dont know.

4. Toughen Up
I have been told by SO many people lately I need to toughen up. Be mean. I mean not mean..........but tougher than what I am. Which is I dont know. weird. I dont think I am THAT soft. I always thought I can be on the bitchy side. Which apparently I am not. ugh. Whatever. where does it ever get me.

5. So if I am not bitchy...what the HELL did I do???
Ok I dont get this....I JUST dont get this.....I dont know what I did to my inlaws...extending.....for them not to like me. I dont know. I just dont get it, and literally all day I wanted to cry. I wanted to freaking cry. It started off AWESOME> What an awesome day. Seriously. Now I would love to shove my head in a pillow and sink away. I just dont get it.